So it was only 2 days ago I wrote out a blog at work. Now my thoughts about this situation have completelty changed. The first couple of things I wrote were:
(A whole new situation. Dear ____ my dear prison officer. No one knows you, no one ever will. I'm trying to decide if this is a good or bad thing. But its amazing I can let this happen and not get a mouthful of what anyone has to say. Maybe thats the thing. I won't get critisised.)
But when i wrote that I was day dreaming of the something I couldn't have, it felt anyway. Later that afternoon the day i wrote this, I spent 2 hours letting you speak to me about your life on these benches outside.
Where was this coming from on your behalf?
Can someone just overshare with somebody else you've said a quick hi and bye to?
I drove home slightly confused, but totally not.
Was it a one time thing?
Can we talk tomorrow after work too? Yes WAS the answer.
Again, after I finished for the day and walking out my little door of my shop, she walks past.. "Come on!!! Lets chat again, how was last night?" (I told her the previous day I was heading out for the night)
So to the lounges this time, then she told me to come out for a smoke, I did. This time the conversation was about what is going on in my life. Only an hour and a half this time though.
Today wasn't as wierd, we only spoke for about 20 minutes.
One thing, I know myself well enough to know I'm reading into this. A thing i like to do. Or just plainly like to think what i want.
Plus she unfortunately have a boyfriend I think. Maybe not that label.
I'll have to put some thought into the things you say and do next time.
This will maybe tomorrow or the next day.
The main reason for this blog, was to say i've actually filled up my bottle with caps. It actually was completed a few days ago.. I'm just slack. But see the pic!!! Thank you to all the other alcoholics who have helped my fill it, and also read my blog to know i was doing it!
I'm going to Melbourne in 2 days. Haven't been for about 7 months. Most exciting.
Thanks Kaki King for being my background music:
