I decided last week to start squashing all my beer bottle caps in half and collecting them. I want to fill up an empty clear beer bottle with lids, its a new project. But i obviously did not consider what the process will be like.
I think i started collecing them Monday, so a week ago today basically.. I know i have failed to collect some, and haven't been able to keep the ones from the beers i buy from bars etc. I'm not sure whether to be impressed or not, i probly have around 20 lids already. So in a week, thats really 2.8 beers a day, from only the ones i DID keep. Is that alcoholic? I don't know. I'm going with no. But i'm at a time of crisis, cos i don't know whether to continue with this assignment or not. I know i will. To hard a decision.
So i was reviewing my weekend through my head while falling asleep last night. My weekend did only involve a Friday night outing, a concert with further partying after. Then a family wedding on Saturday which i wrote about in my last blog.
Friday night was personally irritating at one point, and almost potentially heart breaking if i could ever let it. Not in bad ways, but this is one thing i continuously over-think. Something no one would really pin point, well maybe lots of people actually. Its a situation i seem to run into too often, but never do anything to change it, and the way and obvious steps to make it happen, and how to stop it. I'm not capable for it, but i like to think i am. I'll just say what i think is enough for now. I'll learn one day. Its a circular thing. Thank you blogger, you are my personal area.
I worked today, i work with women in jail. At one point today, i realised the short time I've been there, each day i walk out of there feeling like i am full of advice to share to whoever wants to hear it. And leave that in there then get on with the rest of my day.
I was talking to two girls for about an hour this afternoon, one is only doing time for "obtain money by deceit" and the other for lots of drink driving/fake licence offences. But they really make you feel like you have something special to say. I get the feeling they think they are bellow me or something. I don't think so. I feel like a big mentor. Its ok though. I've decided in maybe my 30s i want to be a teenage councillor, not the same, but similar. It would be a massive challenge. But i would so love it. I think i experienced enough family shit in my past for others to relate to.
I can talk about it for hours. If you ever come across talking to me one on one, endless topic if we run out of things to talk about. I won't be offended i promise. I like to talk about it. Lol.
Also at work today, its in a visiting centre right. Towards the end of the day. We were packing up, so i wasn't focused on visiting families anymore. I happened to look up, and there was three kids, and obviously a Dad to those kids, and a partner to the woman they were urgently staring at the door waiting for, all standing really close-family like. She came through the door hugged her family, i was so close to getting watery eyes. I was wondering why. Everyone makes mistakes. But ones that take you away from important people in your life is more than a mistake. I couldn't imagine that.
I can add another beer top to my collection after finishing one of after typing this blog, how great. Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight. x
