"The wind is cold tonight, oh so I am told. I don't really know."
Is it in what you know that matters..? Or in what you think..? Or is it in what your told..? Are you only after what everyone else has to say to be "who" you are?
Who makes up our minds? I know i make up my own 99% of the time. Maybe sometimes we let others do it for us. Mostly cool word on the street, or what "should" be right is all that appeals to us. Everyone has to fit in somewhere right? Nah.
If no one in the world had an opinion would your life be different? Its more than true it would be. Think about the passion in something, not the award for it.
Learning to truly follow your own instincts isn't always easy for some.
Deep or surfaced thoughts in heads are usually only thought or spoken about thanks to others, not you. This means we never learn, which means we don't grow up.
If something is going on around you, it must slide into your hands too. Great. Don't we always say we have enough to deal with? What are all the things that make "enough" complete?
But we need something to cling to, yeah? A problem or drama, issue or embarrassment, even if its not yours TO cling to. Its true. No one ever seems to want to be happy as a whole. But really, I find it hard to write out that phrase and ask myself why.
All i want in life is to be up, up meaning my head out of the ground, or really, somebody else's. Being down, is just a waste. Sure it can be a learning curve to be in that place if the time, understanding and friendship is there. Otherwise bringing others down, is just ordinarily selfish.
The flip side though, to those people who thrive over the negative sides of life, if that's what keeps you happy, I'll leave you to that. Maybe it does.
In my head, so much makes me happy, the smallest things like a joke. I am lucky to not let sad clouds inside, and really, no one can make that happen but me. I decide what i let bring me down. Not because someone wants to see me that way in seeking "revenge".
I know what memories i want to dream about when i get old and don't have as many people to share my stories with. At an old age, you don't want to be negative and regretful, why now?
These choices are skills that I've grown to learn and to take on board. I know i can be negative, and change. I am not the smartest person I think I am, nor saying i don't do these things I've just written, but when it comes to living and loving my own life, no one can stand in front of that.
There is a bigger world than our own. Think about it.
xx
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